It always fascinates me that when I get to know someone and become friends with them that they can so easily reject you and turn on you once they find out that you're Wiccan. I've lost a few friends on the way and have come to the conclusion that they were never worth my time, but how does one deal with the fact that your own older brother doesn't want you??
For as long as I can remember my eldest brother has bullied me, mostly because of my weight. But as soon as I started my path in Wicca it has fueled his anger and hatred towards me. He does not live in the same house as me anymore, which is good, he used to get me feeling so low about myself that I would consider, and did, try and hurt myself. It seems that all that I am is not good enough for his love. He was here the other day and told me that he hated me, that he never wants to talk to me again, and that he would drive over me in his car if he could. How can someone who is meant to be your family and love you have that much hatred towards you?
A lot of tears that are wasted on him have occurred, but not in front of him, I would never give him that satisfaction. I am who I am, and I am never changing that for anyone. If I have to loose a few more friends and family on the way then so be it, I will live my life happily in the knowledge that I know who I am, and that I love me for me and anyone who doesn't should get out of my way.
I've always found it confusing that someone can hate so violently over someone's choice of religion - my guess is that is challenges who they are and their concepts of how the world works and that can generate fear and uncertainly - and rather than face that they lash out.
ReplyDeleteI've been fortuante that my family accepts my path - most don't care either way as long as I don't bother them with it. My mom actually decided to follow a wiccan path after attending an open circle (that was over 30 yrs ago). But I have lost friends, had people pray over me, and other various not pleasant reactions.
A hard lesson to learn but one every one needs to learn - that is being true to who you are and not pretending just to try and "win" someone else's love. Your spirit is definitely strong and shining bright. :)
awww thank you. well im happy to report that me and my brother have talked things out :) he even said he accepted me as his sister! :D
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